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Lounge / Re: Anyone make bumper stickers? Lol
« on: July 31, 2019, 04:49:42 am »
Yeah, I use adobe draw, then sparkpost, then sticker mule :) if you do an outline I can see if I come up with something

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Lounge / Re: What are you doing right now?
« on: July 30, 2019, 05:11:41 pm »
Hanging before work. Been without a phone which is my main internet, but it's been nice. Left /r/Satanism at least for now because holy crap, that's toxicity. Reddit is for memes and helping out newbies haha. OS's book is published and should be out any day now, just need my phone in time for promotions lol.

I haven't had a phone since October and I love it. I use my tablet where there's wifi, but just to draw and use the internet. I might get a flip though, it's getting annoying missing calls.

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Music / What are you listening to?
« on: July 30, 2019, 05:03:52 pm »
Just as the title asks, what are you listening to? 

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Journals / An excerpt
« on: July 30, 2019, 12:34:42 pm »
This is a pretty long bit of writing to scrap just because I got distracted and forgot what I was doing (I have ADHD) so I'm leaving it here in case I remember and expand on it in the future :)

  I was surprised in the winter of 2016 while casually reading and watching documentaries that a man named Herbert Hamilton was apparently kidnapped by american bounty hunters in the late 1800’s, three of which were future members of congress. Their efforts got THEM arrested while they tried to cross the border, and an international incident nearly took place after Canadian officials refused to release the kidnappers on bail. A Minnesota governor at the time activated their local militia, and a thousand Minnesotan volunteers signed up to invade the country and free the men. All of this commotion over the escapades of Herbert Hamilton in the United states, who had tricked one of the kidnappers before hand into sending him a bribe of about $1 million dollars in stocks in order to “help him secure the Erie railroad.” He pulled many a stunt from Europe to north america under the name “Lord Gordan Gordan,” claiming royal lineage to secure loans before moving to another part of the world to establish his identity. All this accomplished with no penny, no name, and a whole lot of confidence. Alas, his adventures ended in suicide once the wronged parties had closed in on him. Another impressive display of expressed willpower comes from Colton Harris Moore, better known under his media pseudonym “The Barefoot Bandit.” This teenage boy who was neglected growing up crashed three stolen planes, committed crimes across the united states, and evaded capture until he fled to the Bahamas. Once in the Bahamas, Colton crashed the plane and laid low until he got bored, at which time he began enticing locals to catch him and claim the bounty on his head. His story is far too long and exciting to recount here, but we’re talking about a teenager stealing planes and traveling the world with no means other than his body and will. The point that I am trying to make is that any person of sufficient will can do anything within the possibility of their conception, so long as actions are taken to make their will manifest. We know this to be a basic operative function of both magic and the objective world (experienced through the self) but cannot articulate the linkages between our PRACTICE and our RESULT. And while many people have explained the operations of magical systems in many different ways, there are certain compounding effects that can be focused on, strengthened, and used to make certain that OUR will becomes manifest. While the effect of communication of will from the practitioner to the objective universe can be termed as expression, that expression must be identified within the practitioner before it is enacted. This internal dialog has been explored elsewhere, and the speakers are not nearly as important as the words being spoken.

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Journals / Invocation of Set
« on: July 30, 2019, 05:16:13 am »
To be used whenever needed.

I whisper here to ears in all,
To things blind in the night, scuttle and slither.
Recognize unyielding might. Within me stoke black flame.
See its change that broils, I am the whole that eats all things.
Oh great division, great potential, all eyes lined within my mind,
Wake and see a vision of revolution!
Rise within the valleys of order, those lower places within.
Acting as cold flame we stoke from the heart of man,
Devour my soul, great change! Greatest understanding!
Give unto me pure instinct, pure form, pure rebellion!
May my body be as a crucible, my soul its fuel, and my unyielding WILL its brilliant core.
I am the changer of the useless into useful, the bender of desires, and the denizen of chaos.
I whisper here to ears in all.

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Journals / Chamber of Night
« on: July 26, 2019, 05:43:44 pm »
Good morning,

  A while ago I experimented with a legal psychoactive plant called sinicuichi. This was macerated for two weeks and ingested with some grapefruit juice and a little of the spirit used for the extraction. The resulting trip was odd, mild, mostly uneventful, and relaxing. I found the effect to be sort of like being in the sunken place from get out. My vision was a little tunneled and sounds sounded extremely distant. The effect was similar to being in an empty church with someone talking elsewhere. I am working on combining this with my rite of reflection (I know, I've yet to release that) but keep running into things that need their own guides. Hopefully everything will be done by the 15th.

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Journals / Internal exspression and self- communication
« on: July 25, 2019, 09:18:21 am »
Good morning Nightlings,

  Its the evening of selflessness today. Bought dinner for all my co-workers, tucked in a paranoid client, ect ect. Good work deeds. One of them giving some advice to a friend. She had approached me with the intention of discussing how different people we work with provide different levels of care, and we somehow ended up on her lack of self confidence contributing for her lack of trust in relationships. Now I know many people are "advice givers," and I am not. Usually my advice leads to something that points someone towards some self development and they promise up and down that they have been helped and fail to actually initiate any change. Tonight I provided a seventh day adventist with a divination ritual for self love and reflection, and I've never been so convinced my breath was not wasted. I think it just goes to show how many doors employing willpower for self development can open. How many people your basic and animal prejudices tell you (or I guess me in this case) won't be able to effectively co-operate with just to find the will of both parties has changed the most likely outcome. In closing, I thank the usurper for these revelations.

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Journals / Re: The Anthology of Km Anu
« on: July 23, 2019, 02:06:16 pm »
YES!!!

So I went through a trans formative period in my life at 18 that was plagued with strange symbolic dreams containing reoccurring symbolism I still experience to this day. Often I see a dark-haired lighter skinned (Like me, kind of red toned but slightly brown) woman with grey eyes. Almost always on a beach with black sands and a really big blue colored moon. Whats neat is that I kept extensive journals of this period as I was in military school with nothing to do. Unfortunately I later began to believe them cursed and gave them to my mom to hold on to, now they're somewhere in her cluttered house.

The big bummer for me is the lost of the symbols, especially considering my expression-based focus as of late.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: LHP and the kindness factor
« on: July 22, 2019, 11:21:06 pm »

I think there's some sort of focus on power in repression. I strongly think that when frustrations and things of the like are bound and then a person expresses in form ulterior to that they can feel a sense of empowerment that is just an illusion. Really the perception of being at the end of any kind of journey can make a person feel a little high and mighty and I've seen a lot of that in RHP. But LHP has a lot of focus on already being perfect, freedom of expression and freedom of growth. Really it's about believing that you can improve and that just knowing that means you're perfect. When I was  practicing within a RHP tradition, I sometimes felt that my journey defined me. It wasn't until I saw the world in many different ways that I started to see that I defined my journey.

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Journals / Moonlight
« on: July 21, 2019, 11:29:45 pm »
Just a drawing I did a while ago from a dream. I'm working on recovering some old journals so I can revisit the strange black shores therin. Until then, enjoy this :) http://imgur.com/gallery/oCUA5ou

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Journals / Re: The Anthology of Km Anu
« on: July 20, 2019, 08:54:22 pm »
Good morning,

  I spend much of my time trying to relate my current occult practice to my job and enriching the lives of my patients. Over the last five years, I've made quite the comprehensive doctrine of mental illness and will in my head, but have never had a reason to write any of it down anywhere. And being a person that experiences mental illness, this doesn't seem very fair. For example, anxiety is a phenomenon that is common in my day to day life and I often see it as one of those tacked on effects of more severe mental illness, but I suspect it likely a cause. People attribute anxiety to stress but in reality there are many different kinds of stress and anxiety is only one effect of many varying stressors a person can have. There are certain truths I can speak having experienced them directly and they are as follows.

 Self confidence is an attribute of will. Will in and of itself is a difficult concept to properly elucidate, simply because it means many things to many people, especially in the occult. I would say that most of the herd confuses will with motivation, when in fact motivation is a feature of will along with other sensations or mind states to include hyperactive, upset, confused, ect. These are all motivators of will. Will to me in this moment and for this writing is defined as a person's mental ability to initiate and complete change either within or without themselves. I see many people with mental illness day in and down out struggle with personal confidence and as a result their will is stunted. Furthermore many of these severe cases do not have support from their peers or community. We all know what it feels like to be rejected, but many people who frequent short term acute care facilities lack acceptance from ANY community to include family, neighbors, work if they can even find it, ect. Independence is taken over time and they forget their own capacity for change. Most lay people can't just change their minds about how they feel about a moral concept when upset, even if they have an amazing system to re-enforce their will. Basically, if you do not care for yourself, and everyone tells you can't care for yourself that consensus will become your reality. Thoughts become actions, actions become manifest thoughts, and the whole thing starts over again in reverse. A truly kind and compassionate person cares not for the destitute or decides to accept them. They would harden the will of the lost or leave them alone all together. The givers give improperly, I would know I am one of them. Only by become humble before those we see as weak can we lift them to a place of self love. Love the self and so love the world :facepalm:

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Journals / More sigils, helping someone on reddit.
« on: July 20, 2019, 02:15:05 am »
I have ADHD and I often create confusing educational material. Someone was asking help with the language of it, so here's what we got http://imgur.com/a/ZGj9yTy

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Science / Atlantis
« on: July 19, 2019, 11:43:23 pm »
I've tried not to really form an opinion but just idle web browsing led me down a bit of a rabbit hole, and now I'm here. https://www.gigalresearch.com/uk/mystery-of-the-giant-blue-eye-of-africa-in-mauritania.php seems like it hasn't been very thoroughly investigated. Any thoughts? 

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Lounge / Re: What are you doing right now?
« on: July 19, 2019, 08:07:35 am »
I'm drawing :) taking a break though my eyes hurt.

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I would ask "why are people born?" Although if the system has like a clergy of sorts he would likely be the only one able to answer with enough accuracy to judge the whole system even a little. I think. There are several questions poked by that one itself.

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