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Current Events / Re: How are some of you handling this Corona thing
« on: March 16, 2020, 08:38:02 am »
it gave me over time as my day job is in retail but now im paranoid ill get it and be forced out of work for 2 weeks. Thankfully in California they are providing a better safety net if you are forced to quarantine. I also though share a restroom with several other tenants so that creates... a unique situation if I were to get it.

General LHP Discussion / baphomet pronounciation
« on: March 11, 2020, 11:36:08 am »
I had a small argument about the correct pronunciation in person, and seems the internet isn't helping me and some guides have one or the other, or even both!

Either Bapho-met

or Bapho-may

Can anyone with a greater knowledge of language or etymology provide me on some insight?

General LHP Discussion / “Hermetically Open"
« on: March 01, 2020, 02:39:57 am »
Not sure if anyone has heard of this project:

It was supposed to be here, but apparently moved:
Here is the actual library, many historical occult books scanned, many in Latin, French, or Dutch and stuff:

I managed to get the English version of the site but sometimes it reverts.

Just sharing it in case anyone is interested, or has any thoughts on it. Apparently Dan Brown donated a lot to the project.

Science / Re: How and why to colonize Venus
« on: February 24, 2020, 12:56:09 pm »
I was going to make a bunch of smart ass replies until I read the article.

But for real, how do we get a freaking 1km balloon of nitrogen-oxygen there? And even if it's rich in minerals GL getting it off the surface, if we an even really get down there in the first place.

There is a game "Space Engineers" (that unfortunately doesn't have the most realistic physics ever :( ) and I had a mod that put a (mostly) to scale Venus with the actual map data from NASA, just with height amplified for playability (since the max planet size in the game is 120km diameter) and dear satan it is freaky and hellish. It even simulates the acidic atmosphere and to a degree the heat, and at least cosmetically, the weather. Fun to fly around on though but extremely dangerous.

I'm just imagining what kind of challenges getting any resources outside of the clouds would be, or how these societies would sustain themselves. At least mars has soil and the surface could be mined fairly straight forwardly. Some might argue to not do this though so that the planets could be studied, and I'd agree that any colonization should be done carefully in areas of no scientific value and not excessively so, so there are still areas of interest to study.

Satanism / Re: Monotheistic Satanism
« on: February 24, 2020, 12:43:10 pm »
As far as "reverse Christianity" I've never encountered an actual Satanist that believes it.

At least someone serious, I've met people on the internet that might or might not be idiots and/or trolls but they didn't seem to know anything about anything and just wanted a good deal in this life not caring about Hell. It was bizarre. Like, to me, "reverse Christian" satanists would still view Satan positively, these people don't, so to me they can't be Satanists. Since they believe in the Christian beliefs, but still see Satan as bad, they are just plain old Christians.

Satanism / Re: Monotheistic Satanism
« on: February 24, 2020, 10:27:24 am »
I don't think it would be accurate to say that pantheism is a form of monotheism since pantheism isn't strictly theistic, and some pantheistic models can allow for various deities to represent that divine essence.

Speaking on the topic, is there a word for a blend of pantheism and polytheism? Kind of like that aforementioned model but with a harder type of polytheism than just aspects of the big G "God". Like, Satan is the canvas, so to speak, but there are fully individualized deities within it's fabric that operate distinct from it. I hope that makes sense.

General LHP Discussion / Re: Do many of you use Baphomet?
« on: February 20, 2020, 03:48:31 am »
I like Baphomet as a representation of my Satanic queerness and metaphyical idea of the union of shiva/shakti into that which I would term Satan :D

Also SFAIK the pronouns for Baphomet has always been he/him/his.

Baphomet represents the union and inter-working of opposites and dualities. Night, day, left, right, below, above, objective and subjective. They are inter-dependent, and I would argue that two sides of the same coin and hence at the most fundamental level nondual, but manifesting as a dualistic mechanism. This is perfectly metaphorical of my beliefs on the matter in general. Baphomet to me is essentially a western occult equivalent of the shiva-shakti tattva. That is which, for a single word, I find "Satan" the most appropriate on an etymological level. It is the opposing, balancing nature of all of existence that births further duality into the complex web of interacting forces that we see in the Universe.

Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 20, 2020, 03:36:09 am »
The article details the overwhelming evidence in her favor. It seems it's more the judge than her lawyer. This case being in Alabama they don't exactly take women seriously there.

I guess for me I always thought I would be hesitant, but in a way I was but not when the reality got a little closer. I think as a Satanist I would like to think I'm tough and prepared for anything but the conflict in me was that I am not prepared for jail, I would *not* do well in jail, but that might be true of anyone LHP as we wouldn't fit in well with the group mentality at such a place that's needed to survive.

I also always imagined that killing a human would regardless of the circumstances be a traumatic event for me, but brushing with it, I don't think the killing itself or the physical aftermath would be it (as surreal and unsettling I often find real gore) but rather the crap law enforcement and other people would put me through even if I was in my rights and protecting myself. The police department here is a shoot first ask questions later kind of place, highest police shooting rate in the country. It's a real possibility that if someone shot someone in self defense and called the police to report it, the cops would hear "I shot someone" only and come in guns blazing. A lot of people accused of violent crimes in this town never made it to court, and the FBI has been investigating the local PD here for corruption.

Hell last year I personally met one of the officers that were part of a high profile drug ring that got busted (Logan August I believe, said he found Jesus and turned himself in, I posted about it here a year ago, it was he story about the bible study at star bucks that popped up around me). Last I heard while the feds let him off the state was still after him.

Lounge / Re: I had a stupid argument with someone
« on: February 17, 2020, 08:48:28 pm »
I think it's the difference of calling a friend over and having a conservation with them in your head, if that analogy makes any sense. To channel is to take their idea or "essence" and let it be part of you, whereas evoke is more that it's outside of you but very much present. I don't think an invoked entity is as consciously paying attention to what you are doing since you are kind of "borrowing" it's power. With evoking, it's right there actively doing it itself.

Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 17, 2020, 08:42:12 pm »
Sadly too you can be perfectly within Stand Your Ground in your state but get a judge who throws it out anyway and you go to court, after spending months in jail:

If you are a woman, your chances of getting a Stand your Ground decision are much lower, so I would advise most women only do it as a last resort. She did, and I hope she gets acquitted. That and there are less protections for me living where I do than even her, I wasn't willing to take that risk and ruin my life further by spending even a few months in jail because I only had a grand to my name and no way that was going to make bail for a murder charge.

General LHP Discussion / Re: Is the RHP a myth?
« on: February 10, 2020, 12:06:20 am »
Mind master said everything I would of wanted to say but much more concisely and to the point. Giving his post two horns up.

Lounge / Re: Organizing this Forum
« on: February 09, 2020, 09:02:09 am »
Great discussion. Please continue!

Thoughts around board names/categories if we allow lists of words:

Big Category: THE DARK

"Set, Lucifer, and Other Prometheans"

"Satan, Demons, Loki, and Other Adversaries" (Vampyrism threads could go here)

"Hecate, Kali, and Other Dark Goddesses" (Artemism threads could go here)

Big Category: LABYRINTH

"Thelema, Qabalah, Hermeticism, Golden Dawn"

"Sumerian and Other Pre-Christian Magic"

"Tarot, Runes, Astrology, and Other Divination"

In the above schema, there would be no child boards at all.

Just stirring the pot!

I actually love this, although I think we should rework the titles below the two big catagories (I'd suggest something different for the big category headers but I can't think of anything) but I LOVE the way they are grouped together. It fits perfectly along the same themes, is concise and clean. It just needs a name to reflect that and those could be the descriptions "set, Lucifer and other Prometheans" for example could be the description of some name of that category.

Thelema is not a LHP religion
I haven't encountered many Thelemites online thus far, but most of them seemed like LHPers to me.

The one Thelemite I know in town and have had a few long talks with is much more LHP than RHP and that's also almost always been the case of the ones I knew online too.

Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 09, 2020, 07:55:25 am »
Good news, I hope in the long run anyway (as the the landlord seems a little particular about certain things) but I moved into my new place today, so thankfully crazy stuff like that is behind me!

Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 08, 2020, 09:09:33 am »
I've lived in two worse neighborhoods in this town before without ever having much issue (the worst was a stolen pizza and loud music), and been to the absolute worst only being nervous around the gang members in a building full of busted out windows (I was checking out a rental in a craigslist ad a few hundred feet before tehre, didn't take it was too deep in the bad area). The next door neighbors are meth dealers, and I don't like the foot traffic around there due to that, but in the end other than that no issues where I've been the last 5 weeks. What happened here was more that the bullshit came directly to us. You are okay if you keep to yourself in a lot of bad areas.

I warned my host that her friend was gonna drag her down and I was right, but thankfully she locked her out and is done with her. I'm going back tomorrow, I just need to wait out till I move.

Self defense laws are tricky ya but as you said I'd rather fight a court than a psycho. The main thing I learned from this, protection wise, is always have a second exit. There was only the front door and that is what messed with me the most since if they got in the gate we would all be screwed as even the back gate was still through the patio. That trapped feeling is what I think scared me about the situation, being backed into a corner. Even if retreat wasn't my first choice, it should still be an option.

Funny enough my partner got me a protective charm (some kind of stone) just a couple of days prior. Turned out it was in my pocket, I had forgotten about it from the day before.

Lounge / was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 08, 2020, 08:22:49 am »
So I've been couch surfing for the last few months. The last 5 weeks I was staying with the sibling of one of the people I had stayed with before. It's went pretty well so far and I'm just a few days from moving into a place I'd have an actual lease as there's just a couple things left to process for it. My host is a recovering addict that's been clean for a good while, and mostly has her stuff together but unfortunately has had a questionable old friend come around this last week or so (though after this they are no longer friends thankfully).

The friend is a 26 year old woman that is still very much an addict but claiming she wants to quit and having went to a narcotics anonymous meeting even. Well tonight she got dropped off by some junkie friends and started pounding on the door for forever (my host was asleep and I ignored it because I hate her). When my host let her in she asked my host for ketamine which my host was taking tiny amounts for for getting off of her methadone medication, which the friend ostensibly asked for so she could use it to ease going cold turkey herself on satan knows what. Not long after, my host learns of her friend having been dropped off by junkie friends and turns out the friend's abusive ex boyfriend was outside their gate, having been told where she was by the people who dropped her off.

My host goes out with a big kitchen knife and I know shit is going down. I happens to have a CO^2 powered air gun with a FPS high enough that it can potentially kill at close range to the face and eyes, so I quickly popped in a fresh CO^2 and had a hammer ready as backup. I couldn't possibly bring myself to lock my host out if it went down that bad, simply out of principle, and i hear it get bad and thankfully it's her who later comes back.

Turns out she almost lost the knife to the ex boyfriend and got hit and managed to lock the gate. She later goes out again (why I have no fucking clue other than to threaten the cops on them) and it's getting serious enough that I'm afraid they will get around the gate somehow and I swore to myself that if anyone else but her came back I would fire all my shots into whoever's face and eyes then use the hammer to finish the job if that didn't at least disable them. The whole ordeal went on for the better part of an hour.

Eventually the Sheriff came and went looking for them, but while they were the fuckers were sending death threats and threatening to slash my host's tires and at this point I'm just trying to figure out how to leave because there was only really one way in and out of the house. I eventually went through the back gate when I knew they were over at the front gate.

Stuff in life bothers me, but very little truly scares me. I was scared not of the possibility of killing anyone, but with the fact that self defense might not be bought of I maimed or killed someone and that the cops might think it was an actual firearm and that I was dangerous (this county has the literal worst in the country in terms of police shootings), or me or my host being seriously maimed or killed. I didn't know who these people were or what they were capable of.

Meanwhile the friend is acting all like it's a joke or no big deal and making the situation worse, and was apparently high on gods know what. After I left I messaged my host and she told me she locked her friend out that she couldn't risk them ruining her life. Right now I'm in a motel because fuck going back, and just processing the realization that ya, I came pretty damn close to killing someone today, and that doesn't bother me one bit.

I was already considering getting my conceal and carry permit. Looks like I need to go pistol shopping at some point soon, because I'm not going to risk trying my luck again with a hammer and something not actually designed to kill that I only had for fun.

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