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Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 17, 2020, 08:42:12 pm »
Sadly too you can be perfectly within Stand Your Ground in your state but get a judge who throws it out anyway and you go to court, after spending months in jail:

https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/brittany-smith-loses-her-stand-your-ground-hearing


If you are a woman, your chances of getting a Stand your Ground decision are much lower, so I would advise most women only do it as a last resort. She did, and I hope she gets acquitted. That and there are less protections for me living where I do than even her, I wasn't willing to take that risk and ruin my life further by spending even a few months in jail because I only had a grand to my name and no way that was going to make bail for a murder charge.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: Is the RHP a myth?
« on: February 10, 2020, 12:06:20 am »
Mind master said everything I would of wanted to say but much more concisely and to the point. Giving his post two horns up.

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Lounge / Re: Organizing this Forum
« on: February 09, 2020, 09:02:09 am »
Great discussion. Please continue!

Thoughts around board names/categories if we allow lists of words:


Big Category: THE DARK

"Set, Lucifer, and Other Prometheans"

"Satan, Demons, Loki, and Other Adversaries" (Vampyrism threads could go here)

"Hecate, Kali, and Other Dark Goddesses" (Artemism threads could go here)


Big Category: LABYRINTH

"Thelema, Qabalah, Hermeticism, Golden Dawn"

"Sumerian and Other Pre-Christian Magic"

"Tarot, Runes, Astrology, and Other Divination"


In the above schema, there would be no child boards at all.

Just stirring the pot!


I actually love this, although I think we should rework the titles below the two big catagories (I'd suggest something different for the big category headers but I can't think of anything) but I LOVE the way they are grouped together. It fits perfectly along the same themes, is concise and clean. It just needs a name to reflect that and those could be the descriptions "set, Lucifer and other Prometheans" for example could be the description of some name of that category.


Thelema is not a LHP religion
I haven't encountered many Thelemites online thus far, but most of them seemed like LHPers to me.


The one Thelemite I know in town and have had a few long talks with is much more LHP than RHP and that's also almost always been the case of the ones I knew online too.

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Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 09, 2020, 07:55:25 am »
Good news, I hope in the long run anyway (as the the landlord seems a little particular about certain things) but I moved into my new place today, so thankfully crazy stuff like that is behind me!

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Lounge / Re: was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 08, 2020, 09:09:33 am »
I've lived in two worse neighborhoods in this town before without ever having much issue (the worst was a stolen pizza and loud music), and been to the absolute worst only being nervous around the gang members in a building full of busted out windows (I was checking out a rental in a craigslist ad a few hundred feet before tehre, didn't take it was too deep in the bad area). The next door neighbors are meth dealers, and I don't like the foot traffic around there due to that, but in the end other than that no issues where I've been the last 5 weeks. What happened here was more that the bullshit came directly to us. You are okay if you keep to yourself in a lot of bad areas.


I warned my host that her friend was gonna drag her down and I was right, but thankfully she locked her out and is done with her. I'm going back tomorrow, I just need to wait out till I move.


Self defense laws are tricky ya but as you said I'd rather fight a court than a psycho. The main thing I learned from this, protection wise, is always have a second exit. There was only the front door and that is what messed with me the most since if they got in the gate we would all be screwed as even the back gate was still through the patio. That trapped feeling is what I think scared me about the situation, being backed into a corner. Even if retreat wasn't my first choice, it should still be an option.


Funny enough my partner got me a protective charm (some kind of stone) just a couple of days prior. Turned out it was in my pocket, I had forgotten about it from the day before.

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Lounge / was ready to kill someone tonight
« on: February 08, 2020, 08:22:49 am »
So I've been couch surfing for the last few months. The last 5 weeks I was staying with the sibling of one of the people I had stayed with before. It's went pretty well so far and I'm just a few days from moving into a place I'd have an actual lease as there's just a couple things left to process for it. My host is a recovering addict that's been clean for a good while, and mostly has her stuff together but unfortunately has had a questionable old friend come around this last week or so (though after this they are no longer friends thankfully).

The friend is a 26 year old woman that is still very much an addict but claiming she wants to quit and having went to a narcotics anonymous meeting even. Well tonight she got dropped off by some junkie friends and started pounding on the door for forever (my host was asleep and I ignored it because I hate her). When my host let her in she asked my host for ketamine which my host was taking tiny amounts for for getting off of her methadone medication, which the friend ostensibly asked for so she could use it to ease going cold turkey herself on satan knows what. Not long after, my host learns of her friend having been dropped off by junkie friends and turns out the friend's abusive ex boyfriend was outside their gate, having been told where she was by the people who dropped her off.

My host goes out with a big kitchen knife and I know shit is going down. I happens to have a CO^2 powered air gun with a FPS high enough that it can potentially kill at close range to the face and eyes, so I quickly popped in a fresh CO^2 and had a hammer ready as backup. I couldn't possibly bring myself to lock my host out if it went down that bad, simply out of principle, and i hear it get bad and thankfully it's her who later comes back.

Turns out she almost lost the knife to the ex boyfriend and got hit and managed to lock the gate. She later goes out again (why I have no fucking clue other than to threaten the cops on them) and it's getting serious enough that I'm afraid they will get around the gate somehow and I swore to myself that if anyone else but her came back I would fire all my shots into whoever's face and eyes then use the hammer to finish the job if that didn't at least disable them. The whole ordeal went on for the better part of an hour.

Eventually the Sheriff came and went looking for them, but while they were the fuckers were sending death threats and threatening to slash my host's tires and at this point I'm just trying to figure out how to leave because there was only really one way in and out of the house. I eventually went through the back gate when I knew they were over at the front gate.

Stuff in life bothers me, but very little truly scares me. I was scared not of the possibility of killing anyone, but with the fact that self defense might not be bought of I maimed or killed someone and that the cops might think it was an actual firearm and that I was dangerous (this county has the literal worst in the country in terms of police shootings), or me or my host being seriously maimed or killed. I didn't know who these people were or what they were capable of.

Meanwhile the friend is acting all like it's a joke or no big deal and making the situation worse, and was apparently high on gods know what. After I left I messaged my host and she told me she locked her friend out that she couldn't risk them ruining her life. Right now I'm in a motel because fuck going back, and just processing the realization that ya, I came pretty damn close to killing someone today, and that doesn't bother me one bit.

I was already considering getting my conceal and carry permit. Looks like I need to go pistol shopping at some point soon, because I'm not going to risk trying my luck again with a hammer and something not actually designed to kill that I only had for fun.

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Lounge / Re: Organizing this Forum
« on: February 08, 2020, 07:34:04 am »
Following what MM said, I'd suggest something like this:

I. Announcements

II. Left Hand Path
   A. Satanism
   B. Setian
   C. Luciferian

III. Related Paths? or LHP 2. Dark Explorations ect
   A. Thelema
   B. "self created/small" (like Artemism and such?)

IV. Lounge
   A. Entertainment
   B. Journals
   C. Introductions (?)


Erm. Ya, generally he more broad, the better. It makes the forums generally move faster because it centralizes the threads which then make the forums look more active, which retains more people visiting as people prefer more active forums (but not overwhelmingly so or at least not me). sometimes i didn't ever notice threads tucked in the sub forums in the lounge. Honestly all the entertainment there could be collapsed, and imo we only really need the entertainment and journals in there. Introductions can cut down on too many flooding the main lounge but honestly people use that too for intros so eh

I think that the main LHP groups should be the big three, and the second is smaller ones. But it's kind of weird and they are not necessarily not LHP. Dark Explorations might be a good name, but I think a lot of the more self invented or super tiny ones should be collapsed into a collective sub forum where people can present their unique systems.

I can probably come back with a much better idea once I maul over it, this is just my first thoughts.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: Flash images while meditating
« on: February 05, 2020, 05:28:37 am »
I see a lot of geometric stuff, or random dream like stuff. Sometimes you might drift into a state that is more sleep like. I find it perfectly normal although exclusively faces is a little odd, I wonder if you could liken them to masks and maybe that symbolizing archetypes or something.

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General LHP Discussion / How do *you* LHP?
« on: February 02, 2020, 03:07:34 am »
Pardon the phrasing.

I present three questions, in part for a cataloging of various LHP thoughts, since we have a diversity of opinions and manifestations of it, as well as spur some discussion.

1. In your own words, and/or the general view of your identified current/sect/ect of thought, what is the "Left Hand Path"? What differentiates it between other belief systems or practices that are not Left Hand Path?

2. What practices do you engage in, that generally set you apart from religions/spiritual systems/ect that are not Left Hand Path?

3. What are some misconceptions about the Left Hand Path that you would like to address, if any?

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General LHP Discussion / working with daemons for the arts
« on: January 18, 2020, 11:26:10 am »
Edit: after posting this I recalled a similar topic of mine but it was specific to goetic demons and pacts as opposed to just demons in general for art like this one. Can't seem to delete this topic as I was gonna make it a reply there instead but Oh well this is here now lol

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Anyone done this?

I've worked with Goetic currents for musical ends with a lot of success, never even needed to evoke any demon to see strong results. Lately I'm wanting to try this out again although this time with poetry. Later on, I will evoke like I planned I just didn't feel mentally prepared for how overwhelming the results started to become (I also realized I contacted a demon more for composition instead of music more generally so I could channel it towards more post production).

Other types of demons I've only had limited success with for this and not much worth mentioning.

I'm not sure what it is, but over the years I find that Goetic demons give me much stronger results than most other systems I've worked with before. I would reckon a guess that the demons contained within are simply stronger or maybe it's just knowing I'm doing something that's more or less with some of the oldest stuff we got our hands on.

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Lounge / Re: LHP chat on Discord (updated 06/2019)
« on: January 18, 2020, 11:22:03 am »
apparently not since inever saw this.


however i dont even know who admins it anymore as i never see many people on. seems everyone just jumps to pmming whoever says hi


I might start maintaining my own though since the OS one is super dead and not maintained or promoted any to spark life into it. I just started linking to it because I got sick of IRC and I like the fact that on discord you can see the conversation before you get on to see whats actually going on

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Lounge / Re: Joined website today.
« on: January 16, 2020, 01:59:35 pm »
Funny you mention that book, I just bought it for someone for xmas this year lol

And welcome to the forums!

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ima late to the party but who knows i Mean like all kinds of spirits got all kinds of agendas and it really depends on your confidence as a magician how important you think it is. Most magicians over estimate their importance and that of what they write.

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Announcements / Re: The Imperishable Star volume V guest papers
« on: December 23, 2019, 04:37:20 am »
Ya, I was gonna say, mine was 6k words and doing it right on the heel of moving was something I wish I could of always of done differently. It did touch on a lot, but I'd really recommend people stick around 1k to 2k words. That's roughly what's ideal for articles and what I stick to in most of my writings.


Other than the 1k-2k benchmark, I'd also recommend writing up the first draft with plenty of time, sitting on it a while, then coming back maybe say 2 or 3 days later. I also recommend a citations where you can get them if like me, you did some research for it as well. But don't also be like me and forget what page something is on in a book and not give the pages and can't figure it out last minute. Keeping notes is good for this.

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Luciferianism / Ford's Tarot
« on: December 12, 2019, 07:48:55 am »
So I've never been a fan of Ford, from what I know of his work, but I've had a lot of success so far with the tarot deck based on this the last week or so:

https://www.amazon.com/First-Book-Luciferian-Tarot/dp/0557026067

I pretty much just stick to the quick reference or the description of the cards, and def something spooky (beyond normal phenomenal) is going on when I use the deck. I own 2 other decks yet I keep coming back to this one. I've even consulted with spirits in relation to it, so I know something is happening, and there are other things I could get into, about how a spirit knocked the deck over and all landed in a pile but the spread for a reading right side up right before I was about to do one. I don't want to say too much as it went to an incredibly personal series of events in my life. Suffice to say, it was spot on and kept predicting what was going to happen, what did happen and what has happened pretty much 100% as to what has come to pass already. I find the deck seems to predict the future, generally, in the short term future. I always use the past-present-future spread for the simplicity and to help gauge and reflect  my best course of action to avoid futures I don't want to manifest.

Part of me thinks the spookyness (beyond normal phenomena) is because of the sigils on the back of the cards, but I'm sure the artwork helps too.

Does anyone else have experience with this deck or the book that they would be willing to share?

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