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Movies / Re: Last Movie You Watched
« on: December 09, 2018, 05:01:09 am »
Not a movie but a series. I have been watching the HBO show Silicon Valley up to season 3. Out of all of the caricatures, Bertram Gilfoyle stands out to me as he is an engineer that is a LaVeyan Satanist. His outlook within the context of the plot is refreshing even compelling at times.

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Lounge / Re: What are you doing right now?
« on: December 08, 2018, 08:40:03 pm »
Well, my ailment was in no way related to ischemia. Still sucks that hospitals charge a ridiculous fee not only to find nothing in blood lab tests but also to presume to be remedy a situation via ineffective "pain management". My initial instincts, once again, were correct.

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Lounge / Re: What are you doing right now?
« on: December 04, 2018, 11:34:20 pm »
Thanks, @Onyx. Strength! I'd say,  "Fuck Horus!" but I've really got a vendetta against the demiurge  :mrgreen:

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Lounge / Re: What are you doing right now?
« on: December 04, 2018, 10:06:50 pm »
Lying in bed from some ischemia that I'm experiencing in my back. But I could be wrong. Last time this happened, I had caught pneumonia.

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Movies / Re: Last Movie You Watched
« on: December 02, 2018, 02:13:22 pm »
Clash of the Titans 1981

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Lounge / Re: What are you doing right now?
« on: December 01, 2018, 01:21:58 pm »
Buying a new set of cables to start my car.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: sex magic with partners
« on: November 30, 2018, 07:49:02 pm »
I retract my previous post now. I am unsure if I agree with it now. I believe the thoughts in my journal to be accurate now.

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Gaming / Re: Is it just me?
« on: November 28, 2018, 10:17:50 pm »
Runners can finish Demon's Souls in under an hour. That's really the underlying presupposition for Soulsborne series. The essential spaghetti.

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Gaming / Re: Is it just me?
« on: November 28, 2018, 10:16:07 pm »
It's a lot of time to commit. Most games are really loooooong. I mean really loooooong like Japanese RPGs. Speedruns are where it's at.

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Lounge / Re: New here
« on: November 28, 2018, 12:32:20 pm »
Welcome @VamacharaSerpentis. We look forward to engaging with you too.

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Journals / Re: pi_rameses - A Setian Journal
« on: November 28, 2018, 09:31:25 am »
I had a dream that I had not forgotten when I woke up today at 3:48a.

I was living in an apartment and, for whatever reason, my community was making a joint effort to clean up their units all at the same time. They were throwing stuff out in a large dumpster and I was clearing stuff out of an SUV. There were clothes and baskets and other assorted goods. A woman was helping me with it. I didn't know who it was but felt like I was supposed to know her. I can't remember her features in the dream but I think she had fair skin. And I think I just made up that she had red hair after waking up.

I thinking I looked down and lifted my arms ever so slightly like in a first person camera perspective to look at what my avatar was like. I had more hair on my arms than I normally do. They were like Hugh Jackman Logan arms or something. Jacked. I think I just made up that my hair on my arms were rustic brown after waking up. The funny thing about color is that there was one scene where I could not forget the color and I will tell you where. I did not see myself in a mirror so I didn't know what I looked like. There were all sorts of people from different backgrounds in the community and I had not a clue what race I was. The question did not occur to me in the dream but only after waking up.

Anyway, there were two fighter carriers in a military industrial complex nearby that approached through the clearing in the trees from the base. I definitely remember that they were white in the bottom half underneath and behind and gold in front and possibly above. We thought it strange for there to be fighter jets out at this time. There was no notice of a drill or routine and it normally want at this time in the afternoon. I think I heard someone say this. Was it the woman?

Everyone was carrying on with their business cleaning but I was already on edge in anticipation. The fighters approached closer and closer until one was overhead the SUV. I couldn't make up the pilot but then again I want sure if it was manned. I was grabbing something on the inside of the SUV in the backseat and it jammed. Then, suddenly, a heat ray of some sort emanated from the golden fighter above hitting the SUV above. As it began melting through the car making a whirring noise, I ran to the woman to run and everyone in the community to run. I was running with the women. I wasn't looking back or anything but I heard screaming and panic.

I was running erratically with her and she was following me. But somehow, I knew where I was going because the map was a mix between different games that I had seen speedruns for and I was going off what I remembered. Some others in the community were following too and some were making it. But others like this mother with their teenage daughter was not. But the time I made it through an enclosure with some of the others, the daughter had fallen prey first and the mother next screaming for her daughter. This was heart wrenching and I wasn't sure why I wasn't able to help or notice before. I was gripping her hand and she was shaking her head not to do what I was thinking.

At this time, I woke up suddenly and grabbed my phones. I had several notifications and some messages from my mom asking if everything was ok, and if I had done certain things. I just responded yes. I think the dreamscape attached me.

Prior to falling asleep, I was very tired than most days, my feet were cold and I didn't think I accomplished much at work today. I didn't read as much or watch as many videos on my phone before sleeping. And I recall distinctly putting it down stached it away until grabbing it at 3:48a. I guess I'll check in those items now that I had texted I had done after posting. No clue what to make of this. The heat ray was golden brown as well. The blood of the daughter and mother red, like...her...hair.

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Journals / Re: pi_rameses - A Setian Journal
« on: November 28, 2018, 12:43:14 am »
I woke up today in a funk. Some of that might have been evident in the sex magic with others thread. I actually had a good day today despite the cold weather. After ruminating on it, I think of it like this: it is not by account of injustice or anything fatalistic that I am a single bachelor. The truth is that if I had genuinely wanted it otherwise strongly enough, then it would have been so for me.

It would be an injustice if I had been involved with someone just to be involved. The idea is absurd. I have not rocked the boat because I like where I am. I can be playful and flatter anyone I please without recompense or guilt. It is not so different from Ouspensky's notion of man's possible evolution.

PS.
There's never been anything that I have committed to more than the Left Hand Path. I think I entertained the idea because the other person is like that. If not, then better.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: sex magic with partners
« on: November 27, 2018, 09:08:29 pm »
Yes. These escapades can take off pleasantly in the fantasies of ones subjective experience.

I think I'm over my mood this morning. I just wanted to shout and rage a bit for the most unnecessarily boyish reason.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: sex magic with partners
« on: November 27, 2018, 04:07:57 am »
This is at once my most favorite and my least favorite topic. The former from the pleasure and ascendance that may be derived from it. The latter from deliberately isolating myself as I don't want to complicate things contrary to mechanisms of the body. Basically, I want that which I have denied myself or stated that I can't have yet. I wonder if I can when I change my mind or will it be too little, too late?

Not sure when this feeling started. Perhaps it was always there. Actually, I think I remember the moment now but I'd rather not say. Correlation does not mean causation. But interesting. Maybe this should have been a journal entry instead. I'll write the rest in a journal to process and access it better.

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General LHP Discussion / Re: Left Hand Path Quotes
« on: November 27, 2018, 03:57:02 am »
"Nothing ever made the LHP look better than dumbass Bob Larson trying to tear holes in it."

- Xepera maSet

A showdown with Satanism...

Idk what Bob was thinking. Definitely money. Maybe, "Look at me! I'm Chuck Norris".

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